Alchemist Heels

I'm sick and tired how everything evolves around money.... I constantly have to worry about money while i'm here. I feel bad depending on my parents for money.. and now it seems like one after another event after event all involves money.. I was hoping i could get a loan from JPA... guess that's out of d window.. i don't think i've met any criteria at all..Not sure.. i feel soo bad...and disappointed in myself sigh. It's even more annoying when i only have one friend here to talk to. sooner or later she's going to grow tired of me.. I pull myself down way too many times...and though i may be independent, i feel that sometimes i depend on the presence of friends around me.. Especially since i only have 3 great friends.. and the rest are just hi bye friends. I know i should think of positive things. especially when day after day the more i'm conscious about my money, the more money is disappearing from me...It's really annoying.. Sam told me that i...

I don't know whether my body is actually tired or if its my psychological state that is tired... My trip to my home country got cut short and thus i have to miss out on so many things that i could have done.. I honestly detest the word "I could have"..  and yet i still encounter this word so frequently in my life. I guess its part of my nature. I wonder if my lethargic-ness have something to do with the fact that i'm all alone in this country. The country that transmit luck after luck to me ever since I've been here.. I never actually felt homesick until the day that i found out my trip was cut short due to my ludicrous mistakes. Then i realised that the only reason why i never felt homesick was because i had my friend's company while I was here. Now that everyone is off for vacay, i'm stuck here alone. In a way it's a good thing because i have the whole apartment all to myself. But in a differ point of view, life tends to get boring. I feel lik...

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