Alchemist Heels

Dear god, In the last couple of days, I've been happier and I thank you for supporting me all this while. I thank you for giving me all the friends in my life... I appreacite it soo much. God you even opened up steven's hard and calmed him down thank you soo much for that god. I have to say this semester i've worked soo hard and I thank you for allowing me to plow through all of these obstacle and doing well in all of my exams.. dear God i want to pray to you to allow me to get accepted into honours. please allow me to go through honours program in UNSW. i would really appreaciate the opportunity that you would give to me.. Please allow me to get into honours. It is something that i want, and i believe it is also somethign that i can use in the future to help others. God you are all mighty and you are all knowing. You know the right path for me to take. so god please allow me to get into honours for next year. Thank you so much for allowing me to have the best grades i

A friend told me that you are how you play games, I've noticed that too, he's right though.. I really hate to admit it though.. Perhaps by understanding myself, I can solve all of my problems and get to the root of it all. I get frustrated when I lose = Coz I expect myself to be the best at everything I don't scout as much = Coz I think I already know it all I don't attack as much = Coz I'm scared of challenges and I never think that I'm ready. I use the same strategy over and over again but does not properly analyse the game = Coz I'm lazy, can't be bothered and think everything comes easy. I can't do 2-3 things in one go = I can't multitask I always use the basic unit and try to finish the game ASAP = Coz I have lack of patient and always want to end the game as early as I can. I like hidden expansion = Coz I like getting an advantage before anyone else and not share it with them I like warp prisms drop ship = Coz it is unexpected and

So guilty.... I don't want any of my friends to experience hunger... So I don't know what to do... I'll ask him later if he wants to have lunch with me... Its too difficult... I have no money... I just don't know what to do... I feel so guitly.. and tomorrow is my exam... I hope I can finish studying on time.... Please understand my position... Hope you won't let your ego or pride take over you...

Dear Guilt, WHY do you come and destroy me so, WHY am I in this suffocating situation, I feel like I can't expressed myself, I feel like I'm drowning, In misery and in guilty, I've tried to help people, I've tried giving my love to those who needs it, But then why..... Why do I get taken advantage off.... I just don't get it... Its killing me... Its suffocating me.. I'm tired.... I'm drowning... I'm anxious... I want to help you..... so bad.... But I also feel like I have to take care of myself For once I have to say no.... It doesn't feel good at all... But the alternative is worst... If I don't learn how to.. then I'll be stuck in this circle...for a awhile.. I need to break free.... Since I've met you there are goods and bad things that has happened to me... The good stuff are good. but the bad stuff are worst then the good stuff.. We've fought a lot, You wanted things to be your way, I'm passive an