Alchemist Heels

Today I've discovered about myself. I went for landmark forum that was introduced by Katya. I've always wanted to do this for the longest time and If it wasn't for my brother who sponsored me, I wouldn't be able to do  it. Much to my surprise I've found so much things about myself and I'm so glad that I'm alive and that I can do anything and everything in the world. On the first day, which was Friday, I've discovered that I've made my own story, and my story is every time something happened to me, either I got bullied, or being compared with my sister, or anything I would interpret is as me being stupid and that it means i had to be someone else in order to be accepted. So I will always continue to repeat my cycle everytime I'm being stupid i will be a people's pleaser and a chameleon and what not and I will never be happy. Then I've realized that I've been over compensating myself and thus I would do Scythian and everything to make m...

You know I've been watching the biggest loser and similar stories like amazing race and well big bang fantastic baby to make me feel like awesome and into losing weight. Well sometime it does motivate me and sometimes not really. I need to lose weight and I need to at least be 55 kg. though i want to be 50 kg. it seems impossible. now i weight like on and off 68-65 kg. I need to lose like 10 kg by september. jeeesus.. together with the fact that i have to go to uni in the morning early kills me too. sigh. so anyways I'm gonna try my best in september to lose weight by at least 10 kg. I have like 6 more months to go.... so gonna aim to lose atleast 2.5 kg per month. which doesn't sound too bad.... I do want toooo lose weight asap i need to stay motivated and stay focus and well just lose all da weight that i needed too do.. ganbattte. I will achive it!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!