In search of my Indentity

I've been lost and did not know the career path that I should be heading for a very long time. After talking to kakak's bf's friend, I am more clear and I now know what I need to do or which career path I should go into. However, the difficult part is that knowing one of the jobs you want to pursue, require you to have atleast a pHD. How am I going to survive now. This is super hard. I really wish there are more signs to show me how to get to where I'm suppose to be. I know I'm suppose to be able to figure my part out. However I feel so lost. Hopefelly I have a clearer view of who I really am as  person so that I can figure out What I like to do and what my strengths are after this.

Just some things that I need to remember about

“You spend your whole life stuck in the labyrinth, thinking how you’ll escape one day, and how awesome it will be, and imagining that future keeps you going, but you never do it. You just use the future to escape the present.” – John Green

Whenever you’re making a decision about life, ask yourself: “Is this making me a more confident person and advancing my goals, or is this distancing me from who I’m meant to be?” If your habits are keeping you from progressing, ditch ‘em—they’re only holding you up. Move forward now.

Imagine that an uncle you didn’t know passed away and you inherited millions. If you never needed to work again, what would you fill your days with? What would you want to accomplish? Chances are, the answer to that question is what you should be doing. Find a way to turn your passion into a career. In this day and age we need to stop putting our passions aside and start living them.

My Identity

1) Who I am as a person (in my opinion) - The positives

Great Talker

Good at PR

Friendly

Harmless

Patient

Smart

Help full

Kind

Hardworking if I need to be

Fast learner

Can do any task at hand

All rounder ( but master of none yet)

OCD

Sporty at heart if i get the chance to do it or inspired to do it

I love sports / Sporty

Understanding

Adventurous  (like to try out new things)

Goal oriented

Opportunist (Although a bit lacking in it these days)

Good at reading people

Understanding

Diligent worker

When inspired can be really passionate about things and can strive to do more

Creative

Trusting

Optimistic

Wants the great thing in life

Love to live by myself

Smart 

I have great Ideas

2) Who I am as a person (in my opinion) - The negatives

I get sensitive sometimes

I get jealous

Super insecure

Can be good at a lot of things at first glance but have not mastered anything yet

Naive

Fickle minded

Doubt full

Gets nervous

Slow at starting or need inspiration to start doing things (or forced situation) 

Dependent

Fat

Always complain but never strive for change

Don't have my own opinion

Easily persuaded / too trusting

Don't want to do certain things / picky

Don't know how to take advantage of certain situation

Afraid to make a mistake

Afraid of failures

I care too much what others think of me

I care too much what other people's feelings are

I always have the need to be validated

I hate writing

I dislike reading sometimes

Understanding

3) Who I am as a person (according to friends and families)

Strong

Creative

Fun

Funny

Unexpected

Great PR

Can fit in with anyone

Kind

Naive

The youngest

Can easily be bullied / controlled

Rich

Smart

Understanding

4) Things I like to do by myself

Play computer games / games

Reading

Cross - stich

Build models

Photography

Drawing

Creative

Listening to music

Being adventurous and trying something new 

Meeting new people

Reading and talking about the things I like

5) Topics that I'm interested in

Art

Literature

Musical

Make up

Survival - situations and how to

Korean Drama

Business (Just  a little bit)

Myth-busters

Nat Geo

Design / Drawing

Photography

Gaming

Languages

Travelling

Trying out new things

Dance

Music

6) Things I like to do with people

Outing

Drinking

Relaxing

Trip to a new place

Shop

Dance class

Cinema

Go and do adventurous stuff

Concert

7) Things I like 

Fashion

Japanese food

Shoes

Shopping

Have a good laugh

Make up

Dance

Music

Money

Games

Anything related to Japanese

8) Things I dislike

People who are fake

Durian


9) Things that I dislike to do by myself


10) Things that I dislike to do with people

Forced to hang out with people I don't really like 

11) What kind of people do I mostly love to hang out with

Smart

Intelligent people

People who has connection

Wise

Traveled around the world

Open minded

Trusting

Great friends

Third Culture kids

Would do everything for their friends

Care about their friends and family

12) What kind of people I dislike to hang out with

Fake

Too feminine (Girls only)

13) What are my dreams and goals for the future

Be successful

Be happy

Have a life in a better country

14) What kind of job do I see myself in

Science related field as well as creative side field

Marketing

Sales (But not really sure)

Somewhere where I can use my brains appropriately

Somewhere related to an office

Design and create new ideas

Innovative

Somewhere where I will be satisfied

Work in a company that is well known (In their own fields)

Any job that will suit my personality and my ability

Any job that pays well

Jobs where I'm required to use my people's skill

15) Which country do I see myself work in

Japan

Europe

Hong Kong

Singapore

(Anywhere else that I haven't thought off)

16) If I win a lottery what would i do with the money (that's probably what I should do with my life)

Invest on a business to earn more money

Invent something new that people would used and need

Be successful

Make a name for myself

Open up my own exercise shopping fashionable related store / or 2 broke girls rich style 

Have a healthy eating bar place for expats

Have my own business

17) Who do I see myself as in the future

Mentally strong

Emotions is controlled

Humble / Humility

Live in that rich / high class lifestyle ( the two broke girls lifestyle)

Happy

Protected

With my lover who loves and care for me

Rich

Successful

Make a name for myself

Confident

18) What are my strengths

Creative

Can work at anything if given a chance

Smart

Learn fast

People pleaser

Great at connecting with people

19) What are my weaknesses

Procrastinator

Lazy

Need things to be done my way

Fickle minded

High expectations

Some times thinks that I'm too good for certain things

Doubtful of my own strength

20) What are my hopes

To be successful

21) What are my fears

Failing 

Also of being successful