Dear God, This year has been such a learning curve for me. There were multiple of struggles that i had to go through throughout all of the time that I've been staying here. Now the biggest struggle is to actually be an adult and be on my own for a while. There's my thesis that is due tomorrow and man how i'm strugling so much to actually try and complete the work. I've been procrastinating a lot. I guess I'm really done with uni life and I just don't want to work anymore and do anymore assignments. I guess I just want to relax chill and just let lose and just move on with my life. There's that struggle with my mom, who apposes the idea of me staying with steven in the same household. Man was i upset. She was very upset at the idea as well. What am I suppose to do with that God. You would know best on what I need to do. Then there's that strugle with actually being with steven. Some days god its really tough to be with him. All I am is just a ball of sa...
DARN YOU, Why am I so jealous of you, I can't believe you got into newspapers and what not, selling your life story as if it were good, when it was just something normal. YOU make me feel insecure, with your beautiful features, and your height, and everything else about you, I want to be that too, I feel so insecure, Really am jealous of you, I want to be thin aswell, I want to be pretty aswell Coz I have everything else that you don't Except for me being thin, Once I am, On top of everything else, I will own you. And everything else that you think I can't reach I will, You will be my bitch, Once again. Ne ga che cha la ga
Things has become more and more clear to me. I know what I need to do this year. I'm going to go all out and do it and be the best at all of it. I WANT IT ALL as long as you allow me too. I just need to work hard. 1) DO WELL IN HONOURS 2) Complete Honours program 3) Apply for med school 4) Find a part time job in some sort of medical field 5) Get PR. apply for PR 6) Go to the Forum introduced by Katya 7) Grow a spine and stand up for myself 8) Spends more time for myself 9) Spend more time studying and doing well 10) Find out information for how to do well in Honours program.
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