Alchemist Heels

IN the last couple of months, it has been a lot of ups and downs for me. I can't help but feeling everything really happens for a reason. my relationship with god grew stronger. He continuously builds me up and keeping me centered and helping me to see what is the right way  and how he has build a path for me to follow. Thank you lord for giving me that opportunity to shine and for me to go through all these hard obstacle and making me stronger in the last coule of weeks. I can't help but feeling there is a reason for everything Dear lord, I was wonderign why you ever put him in my path. He's always been there, he has all this great and awesome qualities in a man and i've learned so much with him. Then god, why did you make us become more than friends? I really had a great time and i really enjoyed myself for the first 2 weeks of our relationship. Somehow everything else starts to turn to hell after the first initial 2 weeks. It was really hard for  both  him and I t...

1) Getting better at starcraft 2 game (having the ability to understand the game and executing all the game plays that i've desired, Be able to get into platinum league at least) 2) Getting FIRST CLASS HONOURS (change mindset, be strong, do more work and get it)   Got Second class hon div 1 81 wam. (that's not too bad) 3) Learn a musical instrument well. Either guitar or somethign else like drum or piano. 4) Learn basketball (to understand the game and be able to think strategicly and fix fine motor skillls) 5) Have a stronger character/ mindset so that people can't break me and so that I can think on my feet when i'm being pressured 6) Get a great an awesome first job that I love, in a foreign country 7) Travel as much as i can an visit new places every year 8) Become smarter and expose myself to new discovery and new knowlege 9) Know how to survive in the wild. (READ SAS) understand all the knots and thigns to do like readinga  compass, find food, how ...

So couple months ago i've declared that I was going to lose weight and wanted to achieve 55 kg. Now after 6 months, my weight fluctuate between 56-57kg. I still have about 1 week to left before my brother's wedding so I will achieve it, and strive to lose that remaining 1-2 kg left. Its amazing how things tend to work out when you put your mind into it. ALthough I really want a hot body likehtose korean girls with sexy long legs and curvy body. Like the girls from "Waveya", the pro dance cover girls. Especially in their video gangna style. I'm proud of myself to be bale to lose such a lot of weight within 6 months. My initial weight was 76kg when i first started and i weight atmy heaviest at 85kg back in 2009. Now for the rest of the year, I will maintain and I will achieve 50 kg soon enough. and perhaps after that 45 kg. I can't wait to go back home for abang's wedding and feeling good about myself. I just followed the no carb diet, and exercise everyday ...

Today I've discovered about myself. I went for landmark forum that was introduced by Katya. I've always wanted to do this for the longest time and If it wasn't for my brother who sponsored me, I wouldn't be able to do  it. Much to my surprise I've found so much things about myself and I'm so glad that I'm alive and that I can do anything and everything in the world. On the first day, which was Friday, I've discovered that I've made my own story, and my story is every time something happened to me, either I got bullied, or being compared with my sister, or anything I would interpret is as me being stupid and that it means i had to be someone else in order to be accepted. So I will always continue to repeat my cycle everytime I'm being stupid i will be a people's pleaser and a chameleon and what not and I will never be happy. Then I've realized that I've been over compensating myself and thus I would do Scythian and everything to make m...

You know I've been watching the biggest loser and similar stories like amazing race and well big bang fantastic baby to make me feel like awesome and into losing weight. Well sometime it does motivate me and sometimes not really. I need to lose weight and I need to at least be 55 kg. though i want to be 50 kg. it seems impossible. now i weight like on and off 68-65 kg. I need to lose like 10 kg by september. jeeesus.. together with the fact that i have to go to uni in the morning early kills me too. sigh. so anyways I'm gonna try my best in september to lose weight by at least 10 kg. I have like 6 more months to go.... so gonna aim to lose atleast 2.5 kg per month. which doesn't sound too bad.... I do want toooo lose weight asap i need to stay motivated and stay focus and well just lose all da weight that i needed too do.. ganbattte. I will achive it!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Dear God, Today I've decided to apply for part time job. Dear God, I pray to you so that I would get an opportunity to get a good part time job that suits my studies and would allow me to earn some decent pocket money, on top of having a great experience for me to build on my future career path. Right now I need your guidance and I need my luck to allow me to work in a place where I would get good pay, great distance from home and great experience for me to put on my resume. Please help me dear GOD. I want to try my best this year. I want to get a first class honours. I'm going to aim high so that even if I do fall I'll fall among the stars. Please open some doors and opportunities for me dear god. It is important to me... Thank you for everything that you've done for me I really do appreciate it god. I love you From your faithful servant

Dear God, Thanks for giving your gift to my cousin's Uncle, Uncle Ali, the gift of foursight. I  trully apreaciate. He mentioned that I will be better in Fashion and I will flourish in Fashion stream. I've talked to my mom, she said it was allright for me to pursue my dreams.My sis said that I should do things that relates to Fashion aswell. Funny that uncle mentioned Donna Karan. So I will try my best to pursue my dreams. as long as I know what it is that I'm going for. I need to stop thinking of bad things and fears. I think this year is the year for me to go big and pursue all of my dreams. I will have to do it sooner or later. So lets do it and pursue the things I want in life. Opportunities are everywhere. Lets do it as much as I can. God thanks for giving the gift to this uncle Ali. I do feel sad for him because he has help a lotof people and i'm wondering if he"s ever sad and be lonely that people just come to him for the reading and not for him. not to ...