Alchemist Heels

I came across a youtube video that explains about the 11 abilities that exists in life. The idea is to be able to find out what are abilities amongst the list are the things that I am naturally interest in and easily excel in (more than the average person).   Since the year 2020 is all about the year of self improvement, health and growth for me, it is always a good idea to constantly assess myself. 11 ABILITIES THAT EXISTS IN LIFE 1. Musical Ability - Deep understanding in rhythm and music. Enjoy music, and learn better via listening 2. Natural Ability  - Deep understanding of nature, animals and environment. Enjoy spending time in nature and the environment - knack for survival skill 3. Movement Ability  - Deep understanding of body and movements. Enjoy moving their body - Sports, Dancer 4. Interpersonal Ability - Deep understanding between people, good at holding conversation and understand human nature and its interaction 5. Intrapersonal Ability - Deep unders...

 I saw a couple of post about people who are successful (in my eyes) and found success

I have a friend from Convent Kajang school and her name is Shamine. She used to be the pretty girl that was super unapproachable. https://www.sensitivesuperwoman.com/

In my previous post, I've talked about trying out my friend Shamine's "Sensitive Superwoman" coaching. Throughout the call, I've realized that all of the issues that I had in my life has been solved. The last thing that I've struggled the most is about my weight loss journey. As she is asking her questions, it just hit me that all of the big things that I've struggled was solved because of my husband. He has been my rock and without me realizing it, it has been 10 years since we've met and been together. I think I don't give him enough credit for being my support system, changing me for the better and helping me become stronger mentally and loving myself. We went through a lot and he has been the rock and sole reason why this relationship is still intact. So if he has been all that for me then why was I so stuck with weight loss? Couldn't I just talked to him about it? I couldn't mainly because I knew he wanted a hot wife and weight is a ne...

It's been a very long time since I've written in a blog. Figure it should be about the right time for me to write my thoughts out seeing as I've just turned 30 years old and a lot of things has happened since then. Would be great for me to catch up, have 30 minutes to myself and putting my thoughts into paper. Throughout the years, I've been wanting to go to Tony Robbins event for ages. However, it always cost to much (approx USD$1000 - USD$3000++). I've been super lucky though, since Last week I've received an email from Tony Robbins stating that he will launch a 7 day free event for you to sign up and join him in this Comeback Challenge, a special event during this Covid-19 Pandemic situation. I couldn't stay awake for most of the time but luckily with the new technology now days, we can record the live session for me to watch later. It was really fun since I could watch it together with Steven, my husband for almost 3 years now. As part of the challenge, ...

Beauty "  The easiest, cheapest, fastest way to look younger is to stand up straight. You can take ten years off  your shoulders down and your stomach in. Make this a habit when you walk down the street and no matter how old you are, it will take years off  " "  To get gorgeous cuticles you rub a  drop of olive oil into each cuticle " To prevent wrinkles around the eyes you smear a good layer of Vaseline round your eyes at night Body Before leaving the shower, spray your cellulite area with really cold water for as long as you can bear With a dry body brush, brush your body with upward strokes toward your heart, then exfoliate in the shower and moisturize when you get out Always use a body moisturizer after your bath or shower. When you rub the cream/lotion/oil, rub vigourously. Make a fist and rub with your knuckles. Do it for about a minute on each area. Drinks loads of water! Run up stairs, and walk rather than going by car. ...

I've been lost and did not know the career path that I should be heading for a very long time. After talking to kakak's bf's friend, I am more clear and I now know what I need to do or which career path I should go into. However, the difficult part is that knowing one of the jobs you want to pursue, require you to have atleast a pHD. How am I going to survive now. This is super hard. I really wish there are more signs to show me how to get to where I'm suppose to be. I know I'm suppose to be able to figure my part out. However I feel so lost. Hopefelly I have a clearer view of who I really am as  person so that I can figure out What I like to do and what my strengths are after this. Just some things that I need to remember about “You spend your whole life stuck in the labyrinth, thinking how you’ll escape one day, and how awesome it will be, and imagining that future keeps you going, but you never do it. You just use the future to escape the present.” – John ...

Dear God, After that night session with mark and james, it made me feel good. I enjoyed every last few moments or minutes that I've had with you that night. THough I have to be honest it is a lot of work whe it comes down to the moments where I have to actually always remind myself to believe in you. I guess Im still afraid of soo many things. Although I've said that I'll leave everything in your hand. I guess I te the feeling of uncertainty. but then again everyone hates uncertainty. God i have to be honest. I feel like there is no one else who can help me with this stuff except for you. You're like the only person whom i can turn too for everything. You know wht god, I'm beggining to think that you don't want me to be in sydney anymore. before that you lead me to sydney, with everyhting going in so smoothly. EVen when it comes to doing honours year. then suddenly when it comes to finding a job and living in sydney. I feel like you strongly don't want m...

Dear God, This year has been such a learning curve for me. There were multiple of struggles that i had to go through throughout all of the time that I've been staying here. Now the biggest struggle is to actually be an adult and be on my own for a while. There's my thesis that is due tomorrow and man how i'm strugling so much to actually try and complete the work. I've been procrastinating a lot. I guess I'm really done with uni life and I just don't want to work anymore and do anymore assignments. I guess I just want to relax chill and just let lose and just move on with my life. There's that struggle with my mom, who apposes the idea of me staying with steven in the same household. Man was i upset. She was very upset at the idea as well. What am I suppose to do with that God. You would know best on what I need to do. Then there's that strugle with actually being with steven. Some days god its really tough to be with him. All I am is just a ball of sa...

Listen to my self. Don't doubt your inner thoughts, Release the insecurities, Believe in your self. Hardworker, Rainmaker, Self fullfilling prophecy, Achiever. Never underestimate yourself, Eat healthy, Live well, Get thin, Get fit. Smile, Find strength, Don't live in such an innocent lifestyle. Love others, Love yourself, Love the wicked in you, Tame the wicked in you. Stop fighting yourself so hard, Just embrace yourself, Just listen to yourself, Just live and breath and accept. Acceptance is key....

He's not perfect . You aren't either and the two of you will never be perfect.  But if he can make you laugh at least once, causes you to think twice, and if he admits to being human and making mistakes, hold on to him and give him the most you can.  He isn`t going to quote poetry, he`s not thinking about you every moment, but he will give you a part of him that he knows you could break. Don`t hurt him, don`t change him, and don`t expect more than he can give.  Don`t analyze. Smile when he makes you happy, yell when he makes you mad, and miss him when he`s not there.  Love hard when there is love to be had. Because perfect guys don`t exist but there is always that one guy that is perfect for you  ~ Bob MArley

IN the last couple of months, it has been a lot of ups and downs for me. I can't help but feeling everything really happens for a reason. my relationship with god grew stronger. He continuously builds me up and keeping me centered and helping me to see what is the right way  and how he has build a path for me to follow. Thank you lord for giving me that opportunity to shine and for me to go through all these hard obstacle and making me stronger in the last coule of weeks. I can't help but feeling there is a reason for everything Dear lord, I was wonderign why you ever put him in my path. He's always been there, he has all this great and awesome qualities in a man and i've learned so much with him. Then god, why did you make us become more than friends? I really had a great time and i really enjoyed myself for the first 2 weeks of our relationship. Somehow everything else starts to turn to hell after the first initial 2 weeks. It was really hard for  both  him and I t...

1) Getting better at starcraft 2 game (having the ability to understand the game and executing all the game plays that i've desired, Be able to get into platinum league at least) 2) Getting FIRST CLASS HONOURS (change mindset, be strong, do more work and get it)   Got Second class hon div 1 81 wam. (that's not too bad) 3) Learn a musical instrument well. Either guitar or somethign else like drum or piano. 4) Learn basketball (to understand the game and be able to think strategicly and fix fine motor skillls) 5) Have a stronger character/ mindset so that people can't break me and so that I can think on my feet when i'm being pressured 6) Get a great an awesome first job that I love, in a foreign country 7) Travel as much as i can an visit new places every year 8) Become smarter and expose myself to new discovery and new knowlege 9) Know how to survive in the wild. (READ SAS) understand all the knots and thigns to do like readinga  compass, find food, how ...

So couple months ago i've declared that I was going to lose weight and wanted to achieve 55 kg. Now after 6 months, my weight fluctuate between 56-57kg. I still have about 1 week to left before my brother's wedding so I will achieve it, and strive to lose that remaining 1-2 kg left. Its amazing how things tend to work out when you put your mind into it. ALthough I really want a hot body likehtose korean girls with sexy long legs and curvy body. Like the girls from "Waveya", the pro dance cover girls. Especially in their video gangna style. I'm proud of myself to be bale to lose such a lot of weight within 6 months. My initial weight was 76kg when i first started and i weight atmy heaviest at 85kg back in 2009. Now for the rest of the year, I will maintain and I will achieve 50 kg soon enough. and perhaps after that 45 kg. I can't wait to go back home for abang's wedding and feeling good about myself. I just followed the no carb diet, and exercise everyday ...

Today I've discovered about myself. I went for landmark forum that was introduced by Katya. I've always wanted to do this for the longest time and If it wasn't for my brother who sponsored me, I wouldn't be able to do  it. Much to my surprise I've found so much things about myself and I'm so glad that I'm alive and that I can do anything and everything in the world. On the first day, which was Friday, I've discovered that I've made my own story, and my story is every time something happened to me, either I got bullied, or being compared with my sister, or anything I would interpret is as me being stupid and that it means i had to be someone else in order to be accepted. So I will always continue to repeat my cycle everytime I'm being stupid i will be a people's pleaser and a chameleon and what not and I will never be happy. Then I've realized that I've been over compensating myself and thus I would do Scythian and everything to make m...

You know I've been watching the biggest loser and similar stories like amazing race and well big bang fantastic baby to make me feel like awesome and into losing weight. Well sometime it does motivate me and sometimes not really. I need to lose weight and I need to at least be 55 kg. though i want to be 50 kg. it seems impossible. now i weight like on and off 68-65 kg. I need to lose like 10 kg by september. jeeesus.. together with the fact that i have to go to uni in the morning early kills me too. sigh. so anyways I'm gonna try my best in september to lose weight by at least 10 kg. I have like 6 more months to go.... so gonna aim to lose atleast 2.5 kg per month. which doesn't sound too bad.... I do want toooo lose weight asap i need to stay motivated and stay focus and well just lose all da weight that i needed too do.. ganbattte. I will achive it!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Dear God, Today I've decided to apply for part time job. Dear God, I pray to you so that I would get an opportunity to get a good part time job that suits my studies and would allow me to earn some decent pocket money, on top of having a great experience for me to build on my future career path. Right now I need your guidance and I need my luck to allow me to work in a place where I would get good pay, great distance from home and great experience for me to put on my resume. Please help me dear GOD. I want to try my best this year. I want to get a first class honours. I'm going to aim high so that even if I do fall I'll fall among the stars. Please open some doors and opportunities for me dear god. It is important to me... Thank you for everything that you've done for me I really do appreciate it god. I love you From your faithful servant

Dear God, Thanks for giving your gift to my cousin's Uncle, Uncle Ali, the gift of foursight. I  trully apreaciate. He mentioned that I will be better in Fashion and I will flourish in Fashion stream. I've talked to my mom, she said it was allright for me to pursue my dreams.My sis said that I should do things that relates to Fashion aswell. Funny that uncle mentioned Donna Karan. So I will try my best to pursue my dreams. as long as I know what it is that I'm going for. I need to stop thinking of bad things and fears. I think this year is the year for me to go big and pursue all of my dreams. I will have to do it sooner or later. So lets do it and pursue the things I want in life. Opportunities are everywhere. Lets do it as much as I can. God thanks for giving the gift to this uncle Ali. I do feel sad for him because he has help a lotof people and i'm wondering if he"s ever sad and be lonely that people just come to him for the reading and not for him. not to ...

I know you're out there for me. Delete the bad stuff come in the good.  Let me in the path of great happiness. Find me Love, Find me gifts.  The side of the creativity that I've yet to encounter.  Good night world.  Find me a definition, Find me LIFE, Find me PASSION... Find me LOVE...

Dear God, I thank you for providing me the path and lead me to Kila's uncle. I thank you for giving him the gift so that he can help others who are in need. Today I've learn a lot about myself. I've seen what the future hold for me, however I will not write about it here. This is because I would like to forget about it. Forget about it so that it'll come true one day. Anyway today I've learn a lot of bad things about me. My personality and everything. The negative part. I need to find myself. I need to know who I am. I need to know what are the things that I'll enjoy. I need to forget to please people. I need to be selfish. I need to pamper myself. I need to give myself priority. Today I was asked to give away the thing that I love most, which is Jinbei, away. It works as a symbol so that I can get rid of my fears, my insecurities and all my bad traits such as emotional, pleasing people, competitive and everything. I need to find the direction I want to head. I...